A few days ago, I was reading through the book of Isaiah during my lunch break. As I read over the first few verses of Isaiah 54, my eyes scanned over a verse that has since been my source of conviction and repentance.
“For your Maker is your husband–the LORD Almighty is his name–the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth.” Isaiah 54:5
I don’t know why but I read those words like 50 times before it finally sunk in. My Maker is my husband, which makes me His wife. I’m already married to my Maker. When I vowed to give my life to Christ, I became a married woman. When I placed that band on my left ring finger and vowed to keep my body and thoughts pure to honor God, I was making a vow to my Maker, my husband. Then I thought about it.
I’m a HORRIBLE wife. There have been countless times during this marriage where I have not always talked to my husband, be it in prayer or just regular conversation. There have been countless times where I have CHEATED on Him with things of this world and allowed my affections to be on other things. There have been countless times where I have not spent quality time ALONE with my husband to make sure our bond remained strong. There has been plenty of times when I have been too busy or uninteresting in reading my husband’s heart felt love letter to me. There have been countless times where I have not looked my best for my husband. There have been countless times where I have not included Him in decisions in my life, big or small. There have been countless times where I have gone to other people (friends and family) about my problems before going to Him. There have been times where I have not brought honor to my husband, have not always submitted to Him, have not always made room for Him in the midst of my chaotic life.
That one verse was a wake up call to me and how I am treating my relationship with my husband, my Maker. I don’t think I have been convicted at such a deep heart level than I have been with this revelation. The single girl in me is rather thankful and humbled at the fact that God has taken the time to show me how much more work I have to do before He sees fit to wake up my sleeping Adam (Genesis 2:21-22). He reminded me that my spiritual marriage with Him is indicative of my future earthly marriage.
God is challenging me to help breathe life back into this union. He is challenging me to turn my heart back to my first love. He is challenging me talk to Him, to include Him in all things. He is challenging me to dress up and look pretty for Him since He knows that is something I miss myself (He knows me so well, as a husband should). He is challenging me to spend quality time with Him by going on dates with Him! He is challenging me read his love letter, write down scriptures that speak to me the most and seal those words in my heart. He is challenging me to be a woman after His heart.
My question to you: How would you rate yourself as a wife to your Maker?