I have this weird quirk. Whenever I am brushing my teeth in the morning, I can never sit and watch myself in the mirror. It’s been a habit for as long as I can remember. I don’t know where it came from and I only realized that I do it maybe a year ago.
Yet this morning something strange happened. As I brushed my teeth while fixing my eyes on the IKEA catalog on my counter, I could have sworn I heard a voice over my shoulder. Not a 5 year old voice asking for cereal or a 13 year old voice asking why I forgot Pop Tarts. I heard this:
“You are fearfully and wonderfully made.”
Mind you it was 9:00 AM, I was barely awake, and I really wasn’t too concerned about my looks.
Or was I?
Was what I considered a quirky nuisance really the manifestation of lies that I had believed for longer than I can remember? I look in the mirror all the time so that can’t be it. Sure there are things I wish I could change (or have just been to busy to try to change) but for the most part, I can say I am not flooded with insecurity.
Not sure what to make of that voice that I heard in my bathroom, I sat for a few minutes…and looked in the mirror. I stared at myself and could hear the lies that I secretly believed in private while sharing with others how fearfully and wonderfully made they were. I was able to show others the beauty in who God made them to be all the while not truly believing those truths on a daily basis.
God really does have a way of coming to me right where I am. When I least expect it, He speaks the loudest. He doesn’t give me time to rationalize or gather my thought because I know all the right things to say, even if my heart isn’t in it.
A couple of weeks ago, I asked God to make my heart line up with my words. He never misses a beat.